We are back to having difficult days. But we have made a lot of progress this week. My mom got her catheter and trach out and got her jaw unwired. Her anxiety is through the roof though. She is no longer taking meds to control it the doctor said it's a stage she's going to have to go through. So in the meantime we spend our time with her trying to calm her down and reassure her. She has been extremely confused. On Tuesday she thought that she was in the hospital to have a baby and that her horses were being bombed. I asked her how old she was and she said 28 and that it was 1988. I told her it was 2008 and that she was 48 and she said "That sucks". Whenever they ask her where she is she says she is in the Fargo North Hospital. She hasn't lived in ND for over 20 years. She has most of her memories but she is reliving a lot of them. She didn't know that her parents had passed away so when my aunt told her she had to grieve over them. Luckily she cannot concentrate on one thing for too long. But she remembers all of us and our spouses and her grandkids.
The hospital called me this morning and asked that we bring up some clothes so she can walk around the halls. We don't have to wear masks and gowns anymore and my mom is not confined to her room. She is walking really well. She just holds on to someone for balance. She is weak, one trip down the hall and she's ready for a break. She wasn't saying "crazy" things today. She's mad and wants to go home. She told me "Sadie I'm not happy here." I said "I know" and she said "What are we going to do about it". She wants a definate answer on when she can go home which is something nobody can answer. She is being moved to the therapy floor today. That's a huge step. To be on the therapy floor you have to be able to participate in three hours of therapy a day. This will hopefully be her last move before she can come home.
She is not sleeping again, even though they are giving her sleeping pills. The doctor gave new orders today that she is not to take cat naps in the daytime and they are to walk her up and down the halls as much as possible to wear her out. Hopefully she will sleep tonight.